Modern day stresses - observing its effects on my baby

We often forget how noisy, stifling and offensive to the senses civilization can be.
It became horrifically obvious to me when my first born child arrived on earth.

Throughout my pregnancy I dreamt and imagined exactly how I wanted to bring my child into the world.
In an effort to gather all the collective feminine wisdom - I researched, poured over books and read many birth stories.
I found a wonderful and accommodating midwife. My partner and I packed up our woven baby basket and little hand knitted newborn onesie and drove down the coast to set up on the land and prepare for our baby to arrive!
It all turned out better than I could have hoped for.

My Son was born outside, under the stars, in a cast iron bath warmed by a fire underneath, connected to nature, supported by his father and our caring midwife.
His first week of life was spent nestled in our arms, the only sounds around us the songs of the birds, and the rustle of gum leaves blowing in the wind.
The perfect environment to foster our relationship.

Achillea, less than a day old. In his handmade basket and hand knitted clothes

Achillea, less than a day old. In his handmade basket and hand knitted clothes

It was magic !

Then we had to come home.

At this time we lived in a little apartment in a relatively quiet area near Bondi.
From our bed at night we can here both the ocean and the traffic.
It's a strange mix.

Each day we would go into town to do our shopping or whatever else we had to do.
We would walk through a huge hidden rainforest gully on our way there and back to avoid walking along the busy road.

My Son loved this part of the day.
As we descended the stairs into the valley his little body would soften and relax.
He would observe everything around him with joy and wonder.
In town there were many noisy buses, unnecessary beeping horns, bright fluro lights, plus all the noisy, chaotic people going about their busy days.
He would see a person, and try to connect and engage with them, but mostly they were too busy to notice and rushed off to continue their day.

A little break on our bushwalk

A little break on our bushwalk

I became hyper aware and sensitive to the sheer madness of it all.

So we spend much of our time as closely linked into nature as we can.
People have more time to stop and connect in nature.

We often go away and teach wilderness and earth skills to small groups of people.
They all love to connect with him.
He recognizes each one after a time and happily engages with them.

When we leave and go back to the city he will search the faces of the first 20 people he sees, looking for some recognition or familiar face.
After a while he goes back to ignoring all the people.

In nature everything that he is exposed to raises his awareness.

He has learnt that berries come from trees not plastic boxes and in nature all things are useful tools and we can find them readily. He does not need plastic toys to play with.


We are loving the journey so far !

Mulberry season

Mulberry season

Medicine drum making ceremony

Making a medicine drum is like a birth, birthing your self through your creativity into a sacred instrument and tool.

Making a medicine drum is a weaving of wood, hide and rope in which we give thanks and honor the tree, the animal and the intention that we hold during the drum making process.

When we play the medicine drum we echo the heart beat of the earth, remembering our connection to nature and all that is sacred.

The medicine drum is an instrument for song, prayer and connection, using the vibrations of its rhythm to open our hearts and expand our consciousness.

The finished drums

The finished drums

Anki Groening will be guiding us through the medicine drum making journey, as she has with many other women before us.

Anki is a musician, Mother, and home-birth midwife currently living on a beautiful farm on the far south coast of NSW.




“Making a drum with Anki was a crucial step in my life. The workshop collated all of my fly away ideas about myself and the mysteries, while also uncovering new insights and humble pride. Anki has a strong and careful presence and a deep understanding. She really is exceptional. She helped each of us to unfold our stories in our own time and way. So, I am now equipped with a beautiful, portable, personalised shamanic tool. It’s a part of me. My drum continues to connect me with other women, ceremony and spirit. If I had to flee, that’s what Id grab!”

 - Janna


“ Anki is a deeply intuitive and heart-fully connected guide in the drum making journey. I really appreciated the way she held the space for me while I made my drum, she has a beautiful gentle presence and her direction is subtle and true to helping each person connect with their journey. A true spiritual midwife, and I really like her songs.”

-  Radha


“Anki’s drum making circles are rich and empowering. She guides you to be your own midwife in a truly profound weaving of your own unique drum- a tapestry of drum emotion and intrinsic expression. Anki’s wisdom, shamanic practices and her ability to hold space for others is truly beautiful and humbling.”

- Melinda


Anki is a truly gifted leader of shamanic practices, who guided me through the journey of birthing my drum with humility and grace. The whole weekend flowed so beautifully and I felt that Anki held space with a gentle and compassionate heart, effortlessly sharing her teachings with such joy and deep wisdom. I am deeply grateful for the opportunity to receive her medicine and hold the experience very close to my heart.”

- Sara


“Anki had a beautiful gentle yet deep way of guiding women’s womb journeys. The way Anki holds space and honours women’s divinity through making medicine drums and music is magical. Her knowledge and sharing of shamanic practices is amazing and attending her drum making circle was a profound experience I will never forget. I highly recommend Anki’s medicine drum making ceremony to anyone seeking a deeper knowledge of them self through accessing spirit and sharing with women in a nurturing way.”

- Lauren


“Anki is a beautiful Goddess who has guided us with her beautiful soul and her angelic voice on our journey of making our healing drum. It was a peaceful and beautiful process that I was blessed to be a part of and we are all grateful to have her in our community.”

- Piri